Get ready to read a novel.

So, I said I would do a big update right? Well... I warned you. I have been putting this off for way too long, and I hate making really long blog posts because I know the likelihood of people reading them drops dramatically. But- I hope this works out and doesn't bore everyone to death.

Last semester ended with not much of a bang. I was in a depression that lasted me up until about 5 weeks ago. I hadn't been sleeping good and had been struggling with ideas for thesis and felt as if I was going no where. Wanting so badly to get out of my shell and explore life, yet being locked down and unable to do anything has its toll on you.

My back has been giving me problems for a long time but just over the past 10 months or so my back had been aggravated more so than before. Partially I think this aided in prolonging my depression; when my body doesn't feel good, it is hard for me to mentally be alright. I decided to go in to the doctor and find out what was wrong with my back.

Immediately I was put into an x-ray and the doc told me that I would be going into physical therapy and if the problem was still there, I'd go in for a CT scan. A week later I got a phone call telling me I was being scheduled for a CT scan immediately, which alarmed me. Evidently somethings wrong with my back because it was so urgent. So, I go in and have the CT scan and then get sent to a back specialist who basically tells me that, yes, my back has some damaged disks but there was basically nothing that warranted surgery. He scheduled me for a full body bone scan as my next step.

Well, I go in and have the scan and a few days later get a phone call telling me that my back was fine, nothing was broken, and that they wanted to schedule me for a cranial CT scan due to an abnormality in my skull. Freaky right? I go in and have the scan and then a few days later I get the phone call that no one should get. I was told, over the phone, that I have a tumor in my cranium. What? Yea, a tumor.

Here I am, with my back killing me 1/4 of the day and the rest of the time I am in pain but it is manageable, and they can't figure out whats wrong with my back (still haven't figured it out...) but now I have a damn tumor in my head? Great news... this fueled my depression even more.

To bring some good news, evidently the tumor was caused by a car accident I had in Oct of 2007. I hit my head pretty damn hard against my window... evidently it can cause tumors. The thing, I haven't named it yet, is about the size of a marble and it is not cancerous. It will more than likely never grow and I will more than likely never have complications.

No worries about me, my head will be fine. I just wish I knew what was wrong with my back... I relate it to an incident that occurred in middle school where I was pushed off a table and nearly folded my back in half, I haven't been 'right' since then. But I hope that I can help combat this with healthier eating and exercise/stretching. It will be very hard to be a life-long potter when I have back problems at 24.

So, about thesis. Right? I mentioned it... haven't talked more about it. Well, lets just say I finally have an idea. I will save details for another post, as in I already feel this one is too long. Mostly everyone knows these details, but I feel compelled to write them down.

I'll try and write another blog in a few days about my thesis project. So far, I am ahead of the game. I have an idea, it involves bowls not jugs, and my committee is behind me 100% and are looking forward to me finishing. I am looking forward to finishing, I can't wait. I'll be graduating (unless something terrible happens..) in December! Excited much!

Until next time ;) Thanks for reading!